Girl Walks Into a Bar

Notes about that spark of connection between expectation and reality.Erica followed the traditional life in so many ways. Married. Four children. Two dogs. House in the suburbs.Life was not what she had imagined - it was more than she had ever dreamed, yet was not quite enough.A lot of those years were a blurry whirlwind. Motherhood. Womanhood. Marriage.Life dealt blows which brought her to her knees. Job loss. Death. Estrangement. Family members with addictions.Her life fluctuated, with no end in sight. I was usually the anchor, but I felt adrift.After 2 years on autopilot, Erica became exhausted and numb. She was no longer willing to pretend and hope that everything was going to be okay. That she was ok. That all her feelings were just a normal phase everyone goes through. She was lost (and the personal development books, seminars, meditations, and yoga classes alone weren't enough). Finally, that help came to her during a deliberate and careful process dating herself, taking notes along the way, and getting to know herself and her dreams again.